It seems I am only gonna get four hours of peace
a day from the crushing weight of this depression
that wants to consume me and crumble me to a pulp!
4 hrs of no stressing, no panic, no feelings of disorientation
and I am grateful for those 3 to 4 hours that I am not consumed
with these feelings and crazy thoughts, when I am fooled that
all is right with my world.
What changes, what alters, to make it go from life is okay to all is shit in my world???
A person can only take so much of this before they snap!!!!
No end in sight!!!
This sucks big time!!!
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claira,
How do you obtain 4 hours? Tell me you’re secret!
If I knew the secret to why this is my usual reality I would recreate it all the time
but I dont know why it is like this though..
today was a terrible morning and afternoon, then inexplicably four hours of easiness then wham…
right back to panic stations!!!
Cortisol? Have a 24 hour urine test.
Sounds like my day it takes hours of being alone for me to feel normal.