I’ve been cutting myself more and more recently and i am becoming addicted to it. At work today all i could think about was getting home for lunch and cutting myself! So thats what i did, on my ankle, Â and it felt so much better! But it hurts like fuck now and every time i walk the wound opens up and starts to bleed again. The worst thing is i like to see the cut, i like to look at it as if it is an achievement or something! I really think i’m becoming addicted! I was convinced to through away my razors so i couldn’t cut myself but i’m worried the need to do it again will become too much and i’ll just find something else!
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Hey boots,
I know how hard it is to stop cutting yourself but decreasing the amount you cut will help. If you throw them away you will find something else. Something that would do serious damage. I once tried whipping. I am so glad I stopped. Dont try whipping. It will help if you keep yourself preoccupied so you don’t feel you need to cut yourself.
Need a talk just ask or for me to listen,
Isabella
Cheers isabella. I really don’t need ideas about whipping though. But thanks for the advise. I try to keep myself preoccupied but never have the energy so instead just sit in my room listening to music or watching films and thinking about how much of a useless, helpless scumbag i am!
Boots
Boots, you will kick it !! I promise. Your not alone in this, so you will be able to stop cutting, I’m not going to let you get any worse !!
I don’t want it to get any worse but i just can’t stop thinking about it!
@boots6 I threw away my razor, got depressed and tried to cut with my nails, I found another razor and I cut the next day, don’t let this consume you , please dont
I hope it doesn’t. I just know it’s going to be so hard cause it’s all i can think about and i don’t know how much will power i have left!
Boots: I know, its really hard. It’s like me with food. Especially today, as it’s a binge and purge day. It’s all I’ve thought about !!
Just take your mind off of it but putting your kilt on !
Yes that’s is correct it’s not a woman’s garment! It’s a Kilt! And it’s on!
@boots try your best to distract yourself, talking to someone about really anything can help you take your mind off things, I know that s2419 has been helping you loads by talking to you so continue talking to her and help her out all you can, please make sure she is okay, and show her that you care about her too.
Oh and you can also try different things to vent, maybe write letters every time your feeling like cutting?
Yeh rathernot i have been talking to her about it she’s really helped. I will don’t worry i’ll make sure she’s just hunky dorey! os as well as she can be.
I tried writing and i just got annoyed cause i sound like an idiot. I talked the biggest load of shite in the world.
To boots,
You might think I’m sugar coating the idea that no one is useless. You just need something that makes people dependent on you. Watching films may keep you occupied but they don’t give you the same release as excerise. Try different sports and activities should help even better.
Great now I need somethin sugar coated!
Isabella
Cheer up boots! I don’t think you should feel bad, I’m sure you do what you think is best, and coping with the pain somehow is better than letting it consume you. I’m sorry you have to feel the pain though. I don’t wanna sound patronising or whatever, but do you do much other than cutting to help? Is there anything you could do? I’m sure you would be doing it if there was, but sometimes a thought unlocks new solutions.
Boots we’ve been through this before ! It’s a mans skirt, there’s no getting around it, it’s a skirt !!
The dictionary even said so !!
We both know it’s true ! Ahah
KILT! THe dictionary was wrong it was one of those fake ones like wikipedia! I’m Going to check oxford! That won’t lie to me!
@boots6 you don’t know how much it means to me that you are taking care of her, I seriously can’t thank you enough
Oh and about the writing, it doesn’t matter if your not good at writing I’m absolutely horrible but when I used to vent by writing I exhuasted myself and my thoughts would disappear for my mind for the time being. I wish I could still be strong and vent that way but I’m crumbling to pieces, and your not too deep into this you still have s2419 to talk to and she can and will help you stop cutting because she is so great at making people feel better.
Isabella I don’t have the energy to exercise trust me i tried. I’ve been unable to eat so haven’t given myself any energy to burn.
And nobody is dependant on me, never will be. It’s just me and the sopranos for now.
Boots
Boots: I am going to laugh when it says it’s a ‘mans skirt’ !! Hehe
For now.