Failure?

I wonder why so many of us blame ourselves for depression and anxiety.  If you really think about it, the real culprit, the real glaring reason (though it’s hidden in plain sight) is mass society and mass culture.  Sociopathic, consumer-driven, maniacally cruel and relentless, zombie-creating, hive mentality, money/capital-obsessed mass society/culture.  We go through life trying to fill the enormous hole inside of us that mass society creates…for some, it works, although usually not without the use of high doses of anti-depressants and benzos and other drugs like television (mass media and audio-video methamphetamine), sex, food, material objects that we “have” to have (most of it made by non-white children and adults in sweatshops) and dysfunctional culture (e.g. as my brother-in-law put it, most people can tell you who Kim Kardashian is dating but don’t have a clue what’s going on inside slaughterhouses).  Everyone on this site should pat him/herself on the back!  I think (and don’t laugh!) that if you are NOT depressed and angry, YOU are the one with problems!  You have been intellectually, emotionally and spiritually zombified to the point of complete cluelessness and unfeelingness.  If you are rolling around in fake mass culture like a dog in a pile of shit AND you do so with no emotional twinges of any kind, you’ve got problems.  THOSE people need help—not us!  We FEEL.  Even if you don’t know why you’re sad, even if you feel your problems are personal (e.g. you’re fat, ugly, etc.), your perception of the world was shaped by the culture you live in—society/culture defines what fat and ugly are and if you fall short, you’re less worthy of life than the ones who fit inside the box well.  YOU are not useless or stupid—your mind, your mass culture-nurtured mind, is telling you you are.  I’ve read through this site for a while now, and most of the reasons used to justify suicide attempts sound to me like inability to cope with the master/slave dichotomy of society and all of the dysfunctional people within it who have hurt us.  We’re exhausted, we’re sad, we’re enraged.  We come to this site, many to reach out to others who have NOT lost their empathy and feeling…rarely do we come across people in our everyday lives who really understand and care.  Rarely!  Most seem to want to just heat up a TV dinner and watch “Dancing with the Stars” after an eight hour slog at a meaningless, repetitive job they hate.  Can’t blame them.  But they’re burying the pain with drugs:  TV, toxic food, etc.  I’m sure most of us on this site do that, too, but we also reach out.  This site is a community of people reaching out for FEELING.  We feel too much, it’s true—an exhausting amount—but at the same time, we feel isolated in our feelings, so they ferment inside of us.  I’m not trying to persuade or dissuade anyone from committing suicide—I’m on the verge of it myself—but I would love it if more people realized that their sadness, torment, anger and all the rest of it are not their fault.  Society/culture has failed YOU.  YOU haven’t failed anyone.