Tired and Guilty

I tried to kill myself a little more than a year ago. I still struggle with the thoughts, sometimes more than others. Right now I’m just so tired. I’m feeling “blah” again, how I did before. I can’t help but think about just giving up right now. It would be so much easier. I also can’t stop thinking about last time. I feel guilty for all the pain I caused everyone, but in some twisted way, I feel guilty for not going through with it.
The stupid thing is that nothing is really wrong right now. My life is pretty good…which makes me feel even more guilty!