These past few days have been hell for me. I went on vacation with my family and well, my prediction was correct.Â It was miserable except when we did stuff like skiing and tubing. All the time in between was hell on earth. My sister was a ***** to me always being nasty and criticizing me and whenever she did the whole family joined in. So now i realize that i dont have a safe haven anymore. I have no support from anyone really. Anything i do is wrong. I have no friends except for the few i talk to in school but none that i can trust with my problems. Little family support. Nobody knows that im depressed and suicidal. I hide it too well and i dont want to reach out for help. Well on the brighter side, its now gonna be a whole lot easier to leave this world because it wont make much of a difference anyway. Sure my family will be upset and maybe even my “friends” will be upset but thats expected from this kind of death. Life can go on without me and the world would be a better place. I wont be around to burden anyone anymore. 19 days.