So I’m so fed up with this. All of it! I’m a young teen living at home with mom. It’s just me and her right, house full of estrogen. Great. That’s not even the problem. We’ve been living this way for a few months now, the problem is my inconsiderate mother. I honestly believe she doesn’t care for me and her better interest is in herself. She treats me horribly. We have no communication and she constantly fights/argues with me for no apparent reason. I feel like I’m such a screw up. I try so hard to try and be a golden child that she would love because I’m doing something right, but it doesn’t work. Everything I do is nothing to her. Honestly I’m tired of it I question every freaking day why she had to have me. Clearly she wasn’t ready for a second child. She always paid more attention to my brother who is barely a year older than me. She has obvious favorites and denies it. I just want to not exist anymore and let her live her life favoriting her son. I won’t ever be anything important so might as well…
This is mostly venting, I would appreciate some help or advice on what I should do because I’m so full of anger, I just want to explode. I honestly feel I’m no where near stable. I mean I just imagined my whole family getting decapitated and felt no emotion. I feel as if they could die and I won’t care, I can die and they won’t care!
I need to disappear…
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No you do not need to disappear.
Tell me what the ideal mother would be.
One thing we cannot forget is that parents are people too. They fuck up and fail us at times. Not an excuse but as a parent I am speaking from experience.
I went through the same thing as a kid all my life – even know as an old fucking bat I still have to deal with it. But I made a choice to explain how I felt candidly and if they blew up on me – then I shut them down and close the door. It was not easy but they blew up – and I walked away.
Anger is an emotion so many parents want to tag as inappropriate. Uncool.
Its one of many emotions and there are times for it to appear that it is fair. Esp if you have held it in
Is it possible for you to confide to a counselor to help you through these terrible feelings?