I am full out screaming on the inside as my life feels so out of control.
My life should be more even keeled than it is and I am so fed up with trying to keep my balance and do the right thing all of the time. I know I could just go to bed but it is better to dump this poisonous mood on here and get it out of my physical body. I want to have what I believe is a better place to live, in a better area and the thought behind that is that if I am in a better physical place it will translate and rub off on me to be better and do better and live better.
Suck it up kiddo, or do what I can to improve the situation as I see it needs improving… when is good enough simply enough or do I need to always be upgrading and moving upwards and if I am not “improving my lot” does that mean that I settle? Have I settled? Do I take a chance and a leap of faith???
Yes I do take that chance and leap of faith because I am hopeful so hopeful
and tomorrow starts a week long seminar of job searching…. I pray it is not a challenge that I cannot meet because I just want to cry and roll up into a ball and sleep and sleep and not put the effort into this week long seminar. GRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Gotta get to bed now!!! will fall asleep to the computer droaningon about songsa nd youtube stuff.. Hope the sand man comes and visits me quickly tonight and I get up in time to get to the class. again ARGGGGGGGGGgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!