i really dont know where to start. ive been depressed again for last 2 days and counting …
ive been listening the same song since this morning until now (1.30AM)
dislike most of the ppl here i dont have family issues or break ups. i love my family and they love me. there is this thing that no one can really understand it. i know its kinda useless to say that but “I am Iranian”.
i hate almost everything. i start my day by saying fu** words every day. im pretty sure i have no future. maybe thats what bothers me the most. i hate my culture , my people , my country and again my self. im really thinking of sneaking outta the country as a solution but its reaaaaaaly hard here. i drink some times and its just temporary and the pain and the desperation starts again next day.
i had a friend who commited a few unsuccessful suicide attempts. i used to cheer him up back then but i never would have though that i might think of the same thing some day. i really feel that my life isnt going anywhere. its just meaningless and vain.
and the song is still playing …
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That sucks bro. I dont know much about Iran really. I do some work with charities to stop the stoneing of women in Iran, but that is about it.
I am sorry you feel sepressed about your culture. Maybe you should try and leave the country, clearly you are very unhappy there. The again maybe its those issues you need to address instead of running from them. Have you tried seeing a doctor to talk about your depression?
I hope you feel better soon. I wish you all the luck and happiness in the world friend.
Ruins
Thank you buddy. again this is Iran i knew u guys cant understand the whole concept but i just wrote it to be kinda relieved. im getting outta this country even if its gonna take the miserable life of mine.