Overthinking. This is definitely a girls worst enemy. What causes our mind to get so many meanings out of one sentence..one word.
Love. This is something i have never experienced. Seeing couples together. Holding hands, just being together makes me envious. Finally the chance arose. I was finally in the fist stages of being in love and then my mind began to think. So close to finally bring with the one i love. Everyone would say that we were almost destined to be together. But almost was right. He would never show how he truely felt towards me, at least i didnt see it if he did. And when i thought he felt the same way i would find out that he did the same to other girls.
He truly made me feel special, every night he would call me and keep me company when i couldnt sleep. He would sing me to sleep. But then again he probably did that to other girls too. Mind mind always refers back to him and i always find myself wondering, did he ever feel the same way i did?
But now i realise he didnt, i promised myself i would stop speaking to him and see if he would notice and try contact me but, he didnt, this just proved that it was all in my head. And the sad thing is ..I still love him.