Finally, this shit makes sense to my crustacean mind. What happened yesterday was a new experience; when it happens again today, it’s old, tired, and irritating more than anything else. Each repeated detail, each old, stretched-too-thin moment that echoes with long-past experience just creates a ruckus that stimulates a migraine. It’s hollow cymbals beaten on by angry toddlers, and ain’t no way to make them quit it. You just grit your teeth and bear it. Every single day, what should be new is just a rerun of a past episode, and the humdrum routines seem to have no end.
So fuck it.
Might as well sleep in the fucking snow.
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Does your boat need a roof, lobster? I can loan you one.. :/
I’m hypomaniclobster. It just isn’t any fun when your claws are all rubber-banded shut.
Lobsters can have hypomania? I’m guessing you were an unfortunate lobster that was captured to become someone’s dinner. 🙁
’tis possible… unfortunately, I’m bustin’ outta this grocery store before anybody buys me. There will be no grilling this lobster any time soon, I’m just too good. They gotta work for their dinner. 😛
Haha. Break free, lobster! Crawl like the wind! Don’t forget to pinch someone on the way out. Lobster, how did you change your robot Rorschach test thingy? More importantly why aren’t you a citrus fruit anymore?
I haz mastered the mysterious art of Wordpressology. Truthfully, when you change your registered email address, the weird Rorschach test image changes accordingly. Also, I felt like being a crustacean. Not entirely sure why. lol
How have you been?
Oooh, haha, and I thought you had magical powers for a moment. 😉 All you have to do is change your email address on here. I might try that actually. You felt like being a crustacean, ha.
I’ve been… I dunno. Kind of down, tbh. Nothing new here. Same old crap. I’m guessing you’re feeling the same way?
Pretty much…
I jokingly said I was hypomanic, but that’s not entirely a stretch. o.O I don’t have bipolar, so it seems weird to describe it as hypomania, but honestly, that’s the best way I can think of. I’ve basically refurbished my entire bedroom… I don’t even want to list all the nonsense I’ve done in the last three days. I’ve got a grand total of one hour of sleep per day, though, if that says anything. I feel like I’ve lost my mind and I’m trying to find it by cleaning everything in sight… lol
Anything in particular got you down? Or is it just a case of feeling stuck, like nothing’s changing the way it’s supposed to?
Sometimes I feel like I may be bipolar. You’ve only slept 3 hours in the last 3 days?! No wonder you feel like you’ve lost your mind. I felt like I lost my mind a couple of nights ago because I couldn’t fall asleep until 6 or 7am. Couldn’t imagine functioning on that little sleep. I’m surprised you can type in complete sentences. 😛 Are you really anxious about something? When I’m anxious or have a lot on my mind I like to clean and redecorate and throw things away. That said, I like to keep everything pretty organized anyway. I’ve got undiagnosed OCD for sure.
Yeah, I feel stuck. I feel regret for allowing myself to get stuck. I feel like I should be moving along, but fear and hopelessness consistently gets in my way. I’m feeling pretty helpless – I can’t help myself, I can’t help others. And I’m also nostalgic. And dammit I wish I could laugh again. I mean, really laugh.