i dont have any friends, i have people who i go around with at school, but i feel like im just hanging about like a bad smell.one girl is constanly falling out with everybody, and outcasting them, sending them horrible messeges and the afew days later forgets all about it. its happened to me afew times but somehow iv always wriggled my way back into the group. i get so paranoide about this, wondering when it will happen next. if i dont speak to her im left out of my social group and some friends i really like dont speak to me. i cant just make new friends either, its not that easy there arnt that many people who dont think of me as a freak. my grades are dropping because of this and there just seems like there is no way out. awhile ago i read a book about a girl who commited suicide and began to think about it myself i though this could be my way out. i could just leave everything behide.
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That girl is a bully. Someone needs to take her on. Don’t kill yourself over these people, you are smarter than they are…this is a short period of your life and you will be away from these asshats. Focus on your studies and not on this ***** and her posse and try to have goals for your future….you wanna go to college, you can get your grades up. YOu are just as good and probably better than this girl and her wacked out following. See if there is anyone else interesting they are leaving out of their clique that might be nice to talk to. Try to find an adult you can talk to about how you are feeling if there is one you can trust, you know like a teacher who is kind and not stupid. Stick around a little while longer if you can, you don’t want to leave like a book that has not been read. Get a few chapters of life in there first.
Tapestry is right! High school was the best AND worst years of my life. Now that I’m 26, I know it’s something that WILL pass. That girl is a bully. My 24 yr old brother committed suicide on the 2nd, 15 days ago. I cannot even begin to tell you how bad it hurts knowing I’ll never see him again in this life. Please just try to keep going! One day, high school will only be a memory and the things that seem like a big deal now won’t even cross your mind. If there’s someone you can talk to and trust, please do.. don’t give up! I’ve dealt with depression and several of my family members have various mental illnesses (including my brother who just passed) so I know sometimes it seems like things will always just suck, heck, the past year was bad for my family and it took a big toll on me. I thought 2013 would surely be better, then the 2nd day in my little brother has committed suicide! I know I’m rambling and this is probably one of the most unorganized things I’ve ever written ( I’m sick and am still very “not myself” since my brothers death) but I PROMISE things will get better! Please just know that while right now these seem like the most important years of your life, they’re not. There’s so much more to life than mean bullies in high school. Again, I’m sorry this is all over the place, but from someone who has just lost a loved one to suicide, I’m begging you to stop and take a deep breath and know there ARE people who care and it WILL get better!
I’m not great with people, but if you ever need someone to talk to you can email me at cqfour@gmail.com, it takes me a while to answer (sometimes a day or two) but please talk to other people before hurting yourself