Just found this site.
Trying hard not to give up, like old men sometimes do.
It’s 2 am in this small upstate new york town, and time to go out walking, like i do at night. Haven’t been out during the day, or talked to anyone for a week. All evidence suggests i am already a ghost. Food, i hardly eat, slowly wasting away. No more family, no more freinds. Not very social anymore.
Funny thing, seeing other people hurting always makes me cry. Other people in dispair and emotional pain, i get it, been there. I want to reach out and say “it will get better, just being alive is worth everything.” I want to say “please, please don’t give up.” I want to say “Someone Loves You, your life still has a purpose.” For what it’s worth, i love you.
Get mad if you have to. Embrace your life and fall passionately in love with life. Shake off the dispair and hear the music. Your life is important. Fall in love, with something, someone, while you still have time.
But me? Just a quiet, lonely old man. Hiding and afraid. Hoping someone sends back a comment. Tell me i’m not a ghost.
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You’re not alone. Something as simple as a your smile at a stranger can make all the difference in the world to that person. You might be needed by someone you haven’t even met yet. I promise, you’re not alone.
You’re not alone. Something as simple as a smile at a stranger could make all the difference in the world to that person. You might be needed by someone you haven’t even met yet. You’re not alone. I promise.
U really do need to get out, even just sitting at a coffee shop with a good book helps, but don’t just sit at home all alone, it is not doing u any good. A simple conversation with a total stranger can make ur day.
seeing ppl hurting makes me very sad too. I lost my passion for life 2yrs ago and it was passion for love that brought me here…. Passion is such a powerful emotion i always need so much time to recover from it .. heheh,
hope u feel better soon, i find walking at night very helpful as well, walking clears ur mind, but don’t lock urself up in ur house, it make ppl go crazy!!
I hear you and I thank you for your courage. Today was my first day on this site and I realized there are so many of us who need each other. Whether it just to say “I understand” or to just feel like you are not alone by reading the stories. Life is so hard sometimes and it is very difficult to pick yourself up when you feel this way. However, you seem very smart and connected. Perhaps your articulate voice could be used here to help someone else down off the edge. I just want to tell you that you are not alone.
You’re not a ghost. And I hear you – I always feel so bad for those who are hurting as well. Just stay strong, and when you’re ready, go out and meet someone completely new, who knows absolutely nothing about you and just start over. We’re here for you <3
Beautiful post. You’re not alone, because you still have compassion for those around you. Thank you for being that way.
I’m an old woman struggling with these feelings as well. I just want to stay in bed and sleep. I try to go out, but find that I feel even more alone. The suffering of people or animals causes me such intense pain. Will this ever end? How many more years are there?