before i die

so I graduated nursing school, met the man of my dreams, and now i have nothing. I can’t find a job, and dream man doesn’t want me. I have nothing. I feel so empty and alone. I fell in love with my best friend and now he won’t talk to me the way he used to, meaning not at all. and then I hear this song, before i die by papa roach. and it’s the lead singer saying that he was ready to kill himself because of all these reasons, and that his wife was leaving him and this was him saying that he loves her so much that he want’s to live for her. that he will live for her before he dies. and normally I would find some sort of comfort in their music, but this song just reminds me so much of everything i don’t have, that it makes it all hurt even more. I can’t be happy. I cant find a reason to get up in the morning. I want to die. I have nothing to live for. But i want something to live for.