I can’t take it anymore. How can I be such an idiot. I let the love of my life use me and take advantage of me once again. After a year. Of him running back and not knowing what he wants, and me somehow always being there for him anyways. How can he so this to me. I never felt such pain from one guy. i love him,  but all he does it throw me around and take me for granted. When will he realize one day I’m really gonna be gone and I won’t be there to fall for his games anymore. Where is the guy I fell In love with. What happened to him. Why does he now use me and hurt me.such pain makes me want to die. Why be alive if your life is full of depression. I let him back in again only to make me feel special again and use me and wear me down once again yet he refuses to be mine. I can’t keep doing this to myself but I can’t  help it. I’m a idiot a used worthless idiot
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You are not an idiot or used or worthless.
Your amazing especially for giving that guy chances to change and be with you.
I know how heart break feels and it hurts badly like daggers.
The guy is a worthless idiot for using you like that. You shouldnt have to deal with that and you should tell him how you feel and try to forget him cause no one should be treated like that. i think once you stop giving him chances he will reallize what he lost. He is not someone even worth killing yourself over
You are not an idiot or used or worthless.
Your amazing especially for giving that guy chances to change and be with you.
I know how heart break feels and it hurts badly like daggers.
The guy is a worthless idiot for using you like that. You shouldnt have to deal with that and you should tell him how you feel and try to forget him cause no one should be treated like that. i think once you stop giving him chances he will reallize what he lost. He is not someone even worth killing yourself over