Umm..Hi! Im Olya..And Im 15..Im from Greece..And i have commited suicide since I was 13…I dont know why Im really writing this…But…Im really awful…I dont have much friends -the girl who uses to be my best friend left me without a reason…She was everything to me…I loved her more than my parents though… 2 months later our common friends told me that she left me cause they learned im a whore,and cause i had had sex…which is not true….nevermind…my parents knew that i have been cuttin’ for so long,i have been to a doctor also,but didnt help…I cutted yesterday also,they saw the scars and got angry with me…Really angry…My dad barely talks to me now…Everyone says that i have to talk to them…i dont want to…i cant….im scared…they shout to me often about things like suicide…why they do that? suicide is serious,isnt it? at my school everyone knows that i cut…and they hate me about that:o ..they make jokes at me….why? when someone dies everyone wants to turn back the time and be with them and give them alla their love over again…but as long as you tell them you want to die..they dont believe you really want to,they think that you’ll be fine soon again….thats wrong…they leave us die you know…i cant help myself anymore,i cant do it just by myself…i dont want anyone to help me okay? just to listen to me is enough…not to judge me,not to argue with me…just to listen…and accept what i am….what i do to myself… thats all i need:| i hate everythin on me,my body,my face, my life….please…HELP ME,PLESE:'(
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Hi Olya. Sorry to hear that you’re feeling so down right now. Please talk to your parents about how you are feeling and make them understand that you’re thinking about suicide. I don’t think your parents want to accept that you’re depressed or suicidal. Please stop hating yourself and cutting yourself. Just accept yourself and love yourself for the person who you are. Please don’t give up.
Hi Olya, you are so beautiful for sharing your feelings so honestly and openly. Your parents love you but might not know how to help you. Maybe try writing them a letter to explain it. Sometimes it helps to give them time to process what you are saying. Stay strong. The world needs people like you. 🙂
Yeah suicide is serious actually. It just means you’re in pain and want it to stop and the fact that people don’t believe you’re serious about suicide, is making you worse. Seriously I understand the feeling! It’s horrible. I certainly believe you’re ready to die, so I hope things get better so you won’t have to kill yourself. At the end of the day it’s your choice whether you commit suicidke or not, but just know that I’ll try to lunderstand you as much as I can.
Guys…Thanks for all! Im happy I found people who do not just avoid suicide. My parents already know that i have commited suicide many times. Im scared talk to them,even i know that i have to do it..! I cant do it:| I wish things would go better…THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING♥:| ….