I’ve lost.
For months I’ve been playing russian roulette with my best friend. When wouldn’t she be there when I would need her.. Well, now. I will most likely fail but I will try to take my life tonight. Don’t stop me I want this and I probably don’t have the balls to do it anyway xs Cus I’m weak as always xs
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You’re not weak. You posted. You are better than commiting suicide (Hypocriticy in action btw.. I’ve tried tons of times)
I am going to try it xs I’ve felt weak for more than a year now. I’m done fighting xs I already lack the skin on my arm. Might just as well continue..
Please.. Don’t.. Everyone on this website wants to help. We’re all going to be here for you.. What’s troubling you? Just let one person know? Before you kill yourself? Let someone at least try to help! Please.. If it’s not me, then call someone you know… I lack the skin on my arm too but the people here are doing what they can to help and if you need someone to be there for you… We all will be.. I know that.. I don’t want there to be one less person in this world unless its from old age… Please don’t kill yourself
I can’t call someone xs i’ve lost the only person I ever trusted xs I already tried to contact the person I would except to help me and you know what the response was? ‘Ruben, Not now, I’m with matthias…’ (transelated from dutch that is) I didn’t have anyone else to run to xs
Run to me ^^ I’ll help! I’ll listen to what’s wrong! I’ll do my best to let you let your emotions and feelings out ^^
I’m just so fucking alone xs I’ve officially lost the only person I’ve ever truly loved , I ever truly trusted xs I just don’t know what to do without her xs I fell in love with her yes, and I got rejected a long time ago, but I thought we could at least be friends xs She helped me out of a depression in which I nearly killed myself xs And now she just doesn’t ‘have the time’ for me anymore xs Why? Because she has a boyfriend a jealous boyfriend xs I’ve seen this comming from miles away but still I am hurt beyond the point of healing, beyond the point of wanting to fight xs I don’t want to live xs She’s on my school, he’s on my school. When I go back at school monday they’ll be there being all happy and couple-ish. And I’ll be alone and wanting to kill myself. I just want to cut it short and do it tonight xs
Is this your first time on this site, may I ask?
no, I’ve posted three times and I’ve been lurking around for a while now, don’t ask me why xs I guess you can see which posts I made by clicking my name? xs I just really broke down now xs
Hi i’m sunflower… i’m sorry youre feeling so down but there are peple on this site that want to help and listen. i may be kind of young but i know what youre feeling (attempted 3 weeks ago) and i know the people here have helped me. just please try to stay strong for a little bit longer. if that’s not possible and you honestly think that dying is theonly way i hope you find peace as painlessly as possible… much love <3
I don’t really want to die. I just don’t feel any other way of feeling better anymore xs Since i’ve been suicidle since I was ten I don’t really see why age matters (I’m 16 now). I’ve found the strength to stop carving in my arm for some reason xs It’s nice in a sick way to see other people also having tried this and understanding it xs I’m still shaking and I’m afraid to go to bed (which I should its nearly 4 am) xs
No I can’t.. I don’t think that committing suicide is your best choice.. I know how hard it’s going to be to see them like that and I wish I could make things different for you but I don’t have superpowers… I will offer this advice though.. Think before you act..
i’m 17 :)… i cut too we are similar and if you dont want to die then suicide is really not the answer. and because it is hard to kill yourself why risk messing up and just getting really messed up or injured and making shit worse? i’d say hold on. Last year was one of the hardest years of my life but i made it through another year and now i turn 18 in may. yes its going to be tough and i dont know if i’m going to make it to my 18th birthday but if i survived being 16 i know you have the strength to too
you are both right xs I don’t have to die ,.. not now anyway xs I’m afraid of getting stuck in this vicious circle I’m in xs I find people that help me and then they just stab me in the back xs Don’t go all ‘But we won’t’ on my ass.. They’ve all said that xs I don’t have friends anymore, not really anyway. I’ve done my fair bit of thinking I just can’t figure out how I want to end it xs
Just don’t do it then. We seriously are here for you. And if they’re not… I AM!
dude seriously same exact thing. ive lost countless friends because of this shit. When i had no one i found this website and the people here talked to me and care… but last year (when i was 16) i became really close to this girl who has saved me on multiple occasions. just because your friends right now have ditched you and you feel alone dosent mean that there isnt a future bestfriend that you’ll meet and WONT leave you. you just have to tough it out and again i know that’s easier said than done.
Thanks, I won’t. You’ve convinced me somehow xd I love you both for this xs And I do agree there is something about this site which is different then all the other suicide sites. I guess it’s the people acitvily trying to help you no matter what the time , no matter what the problem xs
In a way it’s to late, I’ve cut my arm and i’ll hate myself for it xs especially if one of the people on school notices xs i’ll have to make up a bullshit story about cats attacking or somethin :/
hahahahive said ive fallen ito a bush a cat attacked me a narwhale came out of the water and beat me up with its horn… people are ignorant. i know it hurts when people stare and you see the judgement and misunderstanding confusion in their eyes and pity even sometimes. its horrible. but you have to try and keep your head up raise your middle finger to the world and be like “IF THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO STAY ALIVE THEN FUCK ALL OF YOU I CUT”… i dont approve of cutting but i cut alot so i mean i cant say anything. i’m glad i helped and know whenever you can talk to me or come on here and rant and vent to just get shit out. we all do care and i really hope shit gets better for you. i think it will. you seem as though you have a pretty good head on your shoulders <3
You’re absoulutely welcome!! And like Sunflower said… Come here and rant and vent when you need us~!!
It has been so long since I’ve gotten such a genuin compliment <3 I'm going to bed now, It's enough 'day' for a day.. Even If I get better I doubt I'll forget this place xd It's already meant so much to me ^^ (I feel so bipolar when I just get happy after trying to kill myself xd)
Sleep well!!! <3
Sleep well!!! <3
Hello! I assume you’re in bed by now, but hopefully you’ll read this soon. I’m Sarah, and though I’m only 13 (my birthday is the 20th) I’d love to chat. Like, suicide aside. Just talk. There’s something about you, the way you word things. Let me know what the easiest way to chat would be for you.
Thanks, have a good day,
Sarah 🙂
From a dude who’s gotten to 25…I can tell you in all seriousness, the things that matter to you so much right now in high school…won’t mean shit to you once you’re out of it. Seriously. I know how strongly I felt when I was younger, but it seems so ridiculous now looking back. Trust me, friend…it gets waaay better. You just have to take a break from thinking self-loathing thoughts long enough to let the good in. Know that you’re worthy of a girl that’ll love you for everything that you are.
If you need to talk, we’re here.
I’ve heard from people that try to help me that I have quite a weird way of wording things yes 🙂 For chat, Skype? My email adress on there is ruben.mertens666@hotmail.com but I don’t use that one for emailing, If you want to email just use @gmail.com instead ^^
I don’t know why but, I’ve always held in my back that I should at least hold on untill I’m 24 years old. I don’t know why that specific age, probably because I see a lot of people on these kind of sites stating they’re 24 and sick of it xd
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dv_YiSNqU8c Check this out, and I’ll e-mail you later, I’m doing homework 🙁 @ravanys
There’s also a lot of teens too Ravanys…. Just pointing that out
Yes, I know there are but I mostly have a hard time to relate to teens strangely xd Most people I can really relate to are strangely 24 years old xd I guess it’s just that I notice the ones with age 24 more because i can relate to them more xd
@the ‘perfect’ girl, Thanks forthe video, it helped in a weird way. And I guess I won’t hear from you now will I :/
I AM SO SORRY. I UNDERSTAND IF YOU HATE ME AND IGNORE THIS AND CUSS ME OUT. I UNDERSTAND IF YOU WANT ME DEAD. I’m a terrible person and I deserve everything bad and evil. I chant that till I’m exhausted and fall asleep, my face stained with tears. But I will email you right after this. My email is: smaried143@gmail.com