i tell her that i need to go to a different school, a school where there are only a few people so if anything only those few could pick on me. but she won’t let me leave this one. she says life is full of obstacles and people who won’t like you and people who you won’t like either. stay in this school so you’re prepared. well hey, does the “real world” consist of nobody liking you? does the “real world” consist of thoughts of suicide? does the “real world” push you to the fucking edge? did you try to kill yourself because the “real world” ended up just like school?
all your answers are no and i know that. you didn’t have the same experience that i’m having, you haven’t lived my life, you’re stronger, more likable, than i will ever be. why can’t you realize that? i’ve told it to you so many times, too many times. i’m done now and you wonder why i don’t talk to either of you, you wonder why i cry daily, you wonder why i’ve slit my wrists, why i have cuts and scars all over my body. you fucking wonder even though i’ve tried to tell you multiple times.  it’s not my fault that you just wont listen..
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Is this letter written to your parents? It can be hard for people who have never suffered from mental illness to understand what a depressed person is truly going through just to make it through the day. Please don’t give up.
this isn’t really a letter, but just what i’d wish to say to my mum, sort of my dad. i understand its hard for them, but i tell them all the time that the way they think im feeling is wrong, they just refuse to listen.
I haven’t found counselors particularly helpful with helping me with my emotion, but maybe if you express your feelings to one they’ll be able to get your parents to listen.
i tried one and had a very bad experience. he just basically called me a typical emo kid. he judged me on my sexuality, my issues, and the colour of my nail polish (lol); i hated it.
i’ve been talking to staff at this youth hang out place which has helped a bit i guess. my parents are both stubborn in their nature, they don’t even listen to each other, i doubt they’d ever listen to me unless i end up in a hospital or something.