I’m supposed to stop self harming. I’m supposed to stop thinking about bad things. But I went and thought again too much. Now I want to hurt myself, and I can’t. There’s nothing here to do it with. I smell the blood I want to see drip.
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You have to stop the desire to harm yourself. It’s very unhealthy. Why do you want to hurt yourself so badly? There are better ways of coping with one’s emotional pain than self harming.
^^^that doesn’t help at all. I’m going through the same thing..I’ve been fine for the past week and I haven’t cut in 27 days and right now I just miss cutting so fucking bad. it’s so hard to even try to stop wanting to hurt yourself, just know that you are very strong and brave to even try. be proud of yourself for getting this far and know that you can keep going, I hope I can too
The urge to cut will never go away. I will tell you that from my experience. It has been 9 years since i picked up the blade, and to this day, when life gets hard, i do think about it. It is a release that is unexplainable. But what good is this addiction doing for you if you keep going back with ultimately no ending solution. It is temporary release. It is just distraction from the inner pain.
When i just began the process of not cutting i found that writing my thoughts in a notebook, not a diary but a regular college ruled notebook, (so people wouldnt get snoopy) helped me release my pain and allow my emotions to take over for a bit. Later when i wasnt so emotional I was able to reflect on my reaction to strees and problems, re-evaluate my actions, and try to find a way to react differently next time.
Cutting IS an addiction, and with every day that you say no the the blade, you are stronger! I hope that today you say no. And if not today, there is always tomorrow. Much love to you!