Why cant I be gone already? Why am I still here hoping for change when more terrible stuff happen? Why when i beg God to be dead the more bad stuff happen to me. I guess it just my bad luck. My life is to complicated right now but i keep holding on but then again there will be no change. But i won’t let go. No. Not now. Not when there are those few people that care so much. Not when i start feeling a bit of love. But then I can’t stop that thought. That thought that makes me hurt myself and i attempt to self harm and then self harm leads me to the point where killing myself is the only option. But the more i try…… it doesn’t work. My suicidal plans never work. No one understands me and what I’m going through. I wish there was someone at night to hug other than my pillow. But the worst part is that to me the persons that care are those boys who have little crush on me but that’s not what i need. What I need is someone to talk to. someone who understands what I’m going through and can relate, someone who would like me no matter what I do or look like and someone who cares. Why can’t everyone be like that? Barely anyone is like that so i wanted to die but then again its too hard to die.
4 comments
Hey i understand what you are going through and i am here to listen to you and aknowledge what you say but never to judge you or anyone. I understand that you feel this emptiness when you try to stop hurting yourself. I have been through it and still am. There are reoccuring moments when you believe it is the answer but believe me it is not. They tend to end up being regrets, especially the scars they leave behind and the story that is automatically attach to each, single one of those scars. So dont do it. It helps if if you think about the people who would be hurt if they found out what you are doing and would miss you if you were to be gone. Can i ask how old you are??
dear EmoFaby,
i really want to hear from you. i want to give you my best that i am able to. you can talk to me either via email: iamkungfupanda1@gmail.com . your suicidal plans didn’t work because you want to live more. am i right? 🙂 i am also a music freak. so let’s talk. take care.
your right…. ok!!
im 14