Alone again, another valentines day…

is today the day?  im sorry, i havent been coming here or to chat lately…  ive been really really depressed…  the daily thoughts of suicide have returned, and it seems like with every almost love, the crushing aloneness afterwards gets stronger…  i dont know if i can try anymore, and if thats the case, and im gonna end up alone forever…  i cant help but think maybe i should just do it…  i just dont want to be alone anymore…  cya, and happy valentines day…