at the brink.

so i took them, the pills. I just hope this time it works, this time nothing goes wrong. ive had too much. im not strong, im drained of the energy to deal with everything. i hope everyone’s life goes well. i dont want help anymore, i just want it to end. noone can know, it wont make anyone feel better. not many cared for me, but whoever did i hope everything gets better for them, hope they find someone to replace me soon. i pray my mom will be fine, and my little brother too, he kept me alive. i hope my dad will be well. im not very sure if i will really die tonight, ive taken these before, this time i used up the box tho.. im very very very sorry if im being selfish, maybe i am, but my heart is heavy and death calls.