Cuts

@Hazelleyes,
You’re totally right, I also feel like that. And jup, one day we’ll stop. But for know that day seems really far away if I keep on living. I really thought after a month cutting that I’ll be stopped after three months or so, but really, if it was THAT easy I already would be stopped. At least the knowledge that the cutting on my body in this life ends when I’m dead, is just a good feeling.

@Dave_N,
I really understand you. I mean, before I started to cut and before I got the urge to cut, I also didn’t really understand it. I mean, why would you hurt yourself and make yourself more ugly?? But know I cut, I know it’s not just a thing you choose for every time you do. It’s an addiction, and that addiction is really hard. The cutting at the moment is enjoyable, yes, but after it, it isn’t really. And don’t you think that it hurts when I get accidentally cut? Yes, I also get hurt then and mostly I also don’t like that feeling. I think that’s because you don’t have control of it at that moment. Cutting is really hard for people to understand, unless you are a cutter or been a cutter.

@JessicaMonroe,
I know I have to release it in another way, but I’ve already tried several things. But alk of them don’t give me that feeling that replaces the cutting or makes me cut less. And like Hazelleyes said, maybe one day we’ll be able to stop. Maybe one day, if things ever get better….