depressed

15 years old and havin a shitty life im adopted my bio mom name is karen my bio dad michael left right after i was born i moved around alot my mom was always with abusive men and into sex drugs and drinking dcfs had to get involved when my mom was with this one man who physically abused me and shook me till i fell unconsciousness and i was only two years old i nearly died sometimes now i wish i did i was supposed to to me i sometimes think im gunna end up the exact same way as my momn middle school i got bullied push around for being the weird kid i got hit punhed kicked slammed into lockers spit on broken bones and all got called a slut hore ***** fag turd shitty prostitute lost my virginity when i was in 8th grade i had two miscarriages i cut and burn myself im aneroxic i also have leukmia cancer my boyfriend killed himself when he found out i had a baby on january 12 at 1 am her name is skylar i was physically abused and cheated on by all my boyfriends/girlfriends my best friend died at the age of 14 she drowned ive been sexually abused in half of my realtionships i use drugs i smoke crack heroine weed and i drink all  the time