risperdol

im on risperdol was perscribed it for anxiety fiirst couple daya on it havent noticed significant effects yet ..its used to treat schizophrenia which i think i may have. im hoping it.will take the edge off at.least of my paranoid thoughts.and anxiety.. hasase tried this drug? all my life.id had these abnormal fears and thoughts for example i still am.unable to finish high school do to my social fears. i have one friend who i can barely open up to unless im drunk
i have an alcohol problem already at 18. i am.very sensitive and the smallest comments.can upset . my.quality of life is low since i have few friends. i quite my job due to the disrespect i was gettih from the **** managers damn them.to hell i have no empathy for.u. i am glad i rolled my eeyes at u . you called.me shy in front of people in a rude voice which was probably the last thi i needed.to hear. i was doing just fine untill i cracked.from.that stupid false little.comment. its call a little class.and curtousy. respect from person to person. karma will hopefully take care of u dirty lowlifes. anyway i should be going to bed but my mind disagrees
. i always feel theres an eye watching.me judging me . so i always feel guilty liek im doing so.ething wrong or like my best isnt good enough no i dint have low.self esteem not any more i do love myself in fact i love being unique even tho it sucks. but im.cinvinced that mt thoughts just arent changeable because ive tried so hard to change them.but i still feel very anxious to do the daily things that everyine else does with out thinking. it really isnt fair. its my turn to reedeem what ive been missing. does yet even tho thru lll my pqain n mental torment i wouldnt change it for the happiest person in the world . my life DOES have meaning. i AM a unique beautiful ccreation. i WILL live life to the end. i deserve to be respected and i deserve to enjoy life. i will not tollorate people who are.negative towards me
. hey icoupd write forever ive got all nite. im gunna continue this later tho
thankyou for.lisrening.