Know how I came across this site? I googled, “How to disapear.” And I was brought here…
I was having a bad day, I suffer from depression and today just wasn’t good. I saw my friends and was just in a terrible mood and felt like everything was falling apart. My friends are always busy, I get mad at them for no reason, and sometimes I just feel like Im falling back into this deep, dark place that I used to be about 2 years ago. But then I made my favorite tea, put on my favorite movie and came across this site. And it really gave me hope.
I know everyone out there struggles with something, an inner demon that will live inside you forever. Tonight I realized that I am strong enough, that 2 years ago I almost ended my life but now Im in a better place. And thanks to the people on this site I feel like I am not alone. My friends come from priviledged families, are beautiful and I guess I am jelous of them. I love them for everything they do for me, but soemtimes I just feel like they don’t know. They don’t know about my depression and I dont think I could ever tell them. What would they say? But now I have found this site with other people that (sorta) understands what I go through. This site is a savior.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do about my depression… I feel like it’s getting worse. I dont know if I should tell my friends, if that would even do any good. But for right now I’ll just sip my tea and thank god this site exsists.
2 comments
Well, good job on being in a better place. Maybe tell only your closest, best friend(s) – the ones you’re almost completely sure won’t judge or treat you differently.
Good luck dahling xx <3
i feel the exact same way, we certainly have similar situations