The other day, I did a very shocking thing. Something I swore I’d never do…. I asked for help. On the way to school I explained to my m0m the severity of my cutting and told her I wanted it to end. I’m still in awe that I did it. Everyone I’ve told is so happy, but the anxiety for what’s coming next is driving me mad. I want to understand what will happen next… am I going away? When asked, should I say I’ve thought about suicide?
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IMHO if you are no longer thinking of suicide I would say no, I’m sure others will disagree, but that is the quickest way to be “sent away” It also ads another layer of stigma to the current problems. I believe that everyone has thought about death but that does not make one suicidal.
Next should come a therapy which works pretty well. I was able to get help for my daughter for cutting and I’m glad your mom is supportive of you. Talk with your therapist and work out your current thought process’s then if you still have suicidal thoughts you would probably want to bring it up.
@gungrave how exactly do I determine if I’m suicidal or not?? I’ve considered suicide, planned it out, and written notes.. I’m not sure if that makes me suicidal.
I’d say you can be honest, but be VERY careful to look after your own interests.
When I first opened up to my parents, I was so relieved at being able to share my pain, that I kind of let my mom steamroll me. She insisted I undergo therapy (which I really didn’t want to do), and that, in time, led me to my present miserable state of being dependent on psychiatric drugs, and in many ways, being worse off than before.
So remember:
LOOK OUT for yourself. Even the most well-meaning people can try to force something on you that you don’t feel like doing, and the result can be quite traumatising and damaging to your overall health.
Let people help you, but in ways that you can accept.
Foreverdancing26: To a shrink those would be major warning signs, to me often they have been my own therapy. It could however be a symptom of the other issues that you are trying to deal with at the moment.
I would talk to the shrink and explain everything else first. After 4 to 6 sessions I guess the question to ask yourself is do you still dwell on it? If so then it would probably be a good thing to mention it. This I will tell you If you say you are suicidal they will put you in a place that is not fun to be for 3 – 7 days (been there done that). If you are suicidal though it is not always a bad thing.
Since I don’t know you but from your brief comments above I would say you seem to have a pretty good handle on what needs to be done. The sooner you get help the better and you have started down the right path.
I’m glad to hear that you have told people about how you’re feeling. You’ve taken the first step to getting help. I hope you get the help that you need. 🙂
Good job reaching out to your mom!