I really want it to go away

I don’t know what it is, but there’s this weird feeling in my chest. It’s painful. But no like physically painful, just painful. I don’t know what to do anymore. I am afraid to die, but I don’t have help. There is no way I can ever get better. Well, I don’t know how to start. It’s never been this bad before. Never. And it’s like I wanted to come back to school, because i thought it was going to be easier, but it’s not. I can’t be at home. I can’t be at school. I don’t have anywhere to go. I’m lost.
I wish I could just disappear. Now.