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March 2013

just a peom

by rayderrick 3/7/2013

written by rayderrick

each morning and evening my thoughts are seized in belief that by finding a reason you became so decieving this pain will ease,and the pressure on my chest relieved making it easier to breathe which is necessary for all human beings

However all the countless calls the miles Ive walked staring up and down the walls have taught me to not expect you to catch my falls but yet you stand beside and watch me crawl

a tiny hole in my heart begins to tear bringing back minutes, moments and memories of dispair. There were times I had nowhere to go and still you left me there […]

3/7/2013 0 comment

Watch this

by hereWithoutme10 3/7/2013

written by hereWithoutme10

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciYk-UwqFKA

take some time to watch this video. No matter how bad you think you have it someoneÂ probablyÂ has it way worse than you. Life is a gift, its so special we cant even understand it. We try to figure out everything but why we live such a short life, what we have here now is special. Make the most of what you have because whats worse than being alive? we simplyÂ don’tÂ know. Smile today because you can still walk. I had my legs taken away for 3 months and soon another 3 and I understand I can do anything I apply myself too.

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Something To Say

by Nibru 3/7/2013

written by Nibru

Hello everyone. If your reading this, Â then I assure you that right now I had forgotten this post. I wish not to remember my past, they had been changing me, transforming me, shapeshifting me, into such evil ways. I’m not evil myself, or at least I don’t want to be, but it’s come to a point now that I’ve become a whole different person from the experience I’ve been facing.

Although suicide is an option for me, I’m not planning to do such a thing so far. However, I do admire its benefits if I do take its path. But that brings a question, what does […]

3/7/2013 1 comment

Safety?

by The_Wallflower 3/7/2013

written by The_Wallflower

I planned to kill myself, but then I found this website. I know no one is interested in my story, but I would like to learn about other people here. If I’m able to help one person in this lifetime I will be able to die happy.

3/7/2013 1 comment

Living on borrowed time

by slay 3/7/2013

written by slay

Hi,my name is George,im 23 and i will die soon.

I’ve been wanting for a while now to find a forum where i can share my story,i guess everybody that wants to die wants to share his story.

I’ve been battling with depression for almost 4 years now,and i’ve been planing for a while now how to die,i just want this life to be over,i feel i suffered enough and i just can’t take it anymore..the pain..the loneliness..the dissapointments,but most of all not having anyone to ask for help..having someone i can explain that im suffering and i need help.

I dont have much of a family,i’ve had […]

3/7/2013 5 comments

I’m Getting Worse.

by WristSlitz 3/7/2013

written by WristSlitz

It’s been a while since I’ve posted and I’m actually getting worse. I’m beginning to hate everything even more than I already do. It’s a good thing I haven’t cut myself in over a month.
I’m so tired of faking the same smile everyday and pretending to be happy when I’m not. I have a fucking brain tumor. Why can’t I manage to be happy? Whenever I begin to feel better something bad happens and ruins it. Tonight I thought about killing myself for the first time in weeks.
If I ended it all, no one would care.. my family would be happy a load […]

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I guess things have changed…

by Heidi930 3/7/2013

written by Heidi930

Wow.

I’m reading some of my posts from last year. I can’t believe how much things have changed.

I’ve become more independent and I think I like it… maybe it’s just that I’ve gotten quieter.

I don’t feel as lonely anymore.

And I think I found a new hobby: writing. But I haven’t done it in awhile…

I’m not quite sure where my future will take me, but all I can say is that I hope it’s full of new adventures and meeting new people.

I do know that I want to change things for anyone who are depressed, suicidal, for people who have developed eating disorders or those who self-harm.

Psychology […]

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tired

by idkimalone 3/7/2013

written by idkimalone

im so tired of everything. i always feel like crap. my parents yell at me constantly and i feel like im not wanted. i just dont think theres a reason anymore. i tried to kill myself today. but i ran out of pills. it wouldnt have an effect. i want to die. i just want to end everything.

3/7/2013 1 comment

I Don’t Get It

by WhoAmI 3/7/2013

written by WhoAmI

I don’t understand. Why can’t society leave me alone. I’m titled as weak. I’m titled as helpless. I’m titled as many other names I won’t even mention by my peers. I was raped. This doesn’t seem fair. I’m tired of dealing with all the ridicule I receive every day. Will it ever end? Will society let me be happy one day? Why can’t they do it now? I don’t get it.

3/7/2013 0 comment

school, dreem land, hotspitel, home and british politeness

by why i dont no 3/7/2013

written by why i dont no

so i woke up in derford host… whate ill go back a bit so after i toke the pills and realisd that thayÂ did shit and up chukt hafeÂ i tryd to go to sleep but cos it was E’s i coudnt so i being the clever littel git i am i stade up andÂ whent to school wher in the midel of a fight with a techer i go out like a light

……………………………..

the wold was a verey big place at that time in my life i dreemd of things and people all mregd together in a bler of light and sownd i tort of people from here […]

3/7/2013 2 comments

So, Weird But Awesome Day.

by TrumpetChick99 3/7/2013

written by TrumpetChick99

I began to write a diary today. It had everything in it. And, um, Garrett read it. He took it from me. I didn’t just let it go willingly. I fought until the end. I was about to cry, but then he was so sweet. He looked up at me, kinda smiled, and then he asked me if Mr. Harvey could read it. (Mr. Harvey is the teacher that I had that period) He said, “It’s really good. You should let him read it.” I almost cried again because of how sweet he was. But he’s moving… Why? He readÂ everything. He freaking knows how I […]

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Slow dancing in a burning room

by drewby92 3/7/2013

written by drewby92

Today i feel more dead than most days. I took a look in the mirror and didnt even regonize the guy looking back at me. Scruffly beard, messy hair, flabby body. What happened to me and my life? I used to be so outgoing and well groomed. I used to work out everyday and have goals and ambitions. Now i could sit in my room all day and not leave it. Only to come out to eat and use the restroom. Im tired of feeling bad for myself, becasue i feel i should be strong enough to pull out of this…..but on the other hand […]

3/7/2013 10 comments

It’s Been A While But I’m Back

by nostalgia 3/7/2013

written by nostalgia

I’ve been fine for a while now, I won a couple art contests even, and I’m allowed to go to the next anime convention, but recently the thoughts and nightmares are coming back. I know exactly what is causing it but I don’t know how to respond. My mom saw a suicide note I wrote back then and she had a talk with me. (before i tell you guys anything else, i go to an SAT prep school on Saturdays and they give out a bunch of homework that is due the next Saturday) Usually my mom tells me to finish all of my SAT […]

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I’m tired of crying.

by Bloody 3/7/2013

written by Bloody

Hi guys! Fisrt of all; Thank you for commenting at my first post, it made me feel a bit better : )

I tolf that I’m so lonely in school… But today I started to cry, and I’m happy that no one noticed becouse it would be horrible. Almost everyone in my class dislikes me, and I don’t have any friends in the whole school, so I try not to annoy them so they wouldn’t start to hate me, becouse I wouldn’t have anyone by my side then.. This hasn’t been first time I cry becouse of my class, but it has been long time since […]

3/7/2013 0 comment

Welcome to MY Black Parade

by Blue 3/7/2013

written by Blue

The car door shuts and I walk to my house, not letting him see the tears that stream down my face. I know its the last time I’ll take this brutal walk. He stares down at the letter that I left for him on his seat,his fingers pick it up carefully as my front door closes. The last words I tell him ring in both our heads, “remember I love you, and don’t read it until I’m inside okay?” He nods softly and hugs me goodbye. I walk up to my room and fall to the floor, tears pouring down my face. I know I […]

3/7/2013 0 comment

Lonely..

by Student19 3/7/2013

written by Student19

I just feel lonely. Even in a room filled with people I feel lonely. It’s killing me inside knowing that there’s no one who can really understand me, no one who I can talk to, no one who can be my friend. I’ve read stories of people in their teenage years who had a crisis, but being surounded by people who you know that would hate having someone bisexual around them is devastating. I tried and tried and tried and every goddamn time it’s always the same: nobody to talk to and those who might seem interested turn you down telling me really silly reasons. […]

3/7/2013 1 comment

Like they REALLY want to help me. NOT -.-

by Engeltje 3/7/2013

written by Engeltje

FUCK THEM!!!
FUCK THOSE THERAPISTS!!!!!

I’m really mad right now…The therapists say that they want to make me better and they will do everything to make me better. Yeah right. I’ve been in therapy for ten months now there and it only got worse and worse. I have going to the part-time therapy (5 days a week from 9 am till 3 pm) for 4 months now, and I have reached none of my goals. And those therapists…. they really sucked!! I really feel like they don’t take me serious. This was a conversation I had a few weeks ago when I told the therapists that […]

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by onlyoption 3/7/2013

written by onlyoption

anyone who has a horse will know how close you can become, how easy it is to open up to them, how intuitive they are, never judging you just trusting you depending on you, my horse was my best friend, id sleep in the corner of ou stables and hed nuzzle me, and wipe my tears oh his nose. when he got ill, i kouldnt stand seeing him in such a state, my national champion boy could barely walk, a bone problem he was born with. soon after he got put down. its been over 6 months now, and theres been no one there, i […]

3/7/2013 1 comment

the truth

by bullied123 3/7/2013

written by bullied123

I am cutting harder and hating life more everyday. I really want to talk to somebody but, i told three of my friend and i told them everything but they havent talked to me since. If i told my family that i think im depressed and how i feel they would probably laugh at me and say that im being dramatic. i know for sure that someday i will kill myself because life is slowly killing me little by little every day. My only dream is to be happy. I try to eat as little as possible and i can barely look at myself in […]

3/7/2013 3 comments

Nothing Matters

by slave2many 3/7/2013

written by slave2many

The arguments are all the same; “Someone will miss you.” “You’re important to someone.”

So what? Only the living feel remorse. I won’t care when I’m dead. And eventually all those people will be just as dead and it won’t matter anyways.

I can’t get anything right. I can’t provide for my family. Every attempt at bettering our life ends in crap.

I am sick of the rejection and the constant reminders of how inadequate I am.

I’m sick of being responsible for everyone around me. I can’t carry this burden any longer.

My family wants to leave and the life insurance will get them out of this hell hole. […]

3/7/2013 2 comments

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