The She-Devil

Oh, look. Just to make my day a bit better. My mom comes into my room, insults me because I “slept for 30 minutes longer” and then she goes on about how I’m “ungrateful”.

Mom, you’re a disgusting *****. A disgusting person, your mind is horrid and your actions are in vain. I regret knowing/acknowledging you as my mother. As well as my sister, you have not only allowed my biological father to beat me, but to allow him to visit me, knowing he had molested me and the cursed words he had told me in my room as I played “Naruto”, will never leave my mind in torment. “If only you weren’t my daughter–“. A mother is supposed to be a loving, caring image of a person. Someone who nurtures, supports and adores their child no matter what. Yet, at the sight of seeing me smile, you must destroy it. You are a disgusting, monster that complains and withers in her own madness. You are the creator of me, and the reason I wish to die daily. You’re the reason, and as well as my biological father that I wish to not have a family, that I don’t understand the differences of ‘love’, why I get laughed at when I get scared because someone is being nice to /me/, I ‘m sick in the fucking brain thanks to the disgusting piece of shit like you. Do you know how many times I get LAUGHED at and made FUN of, as if I were any less than a normal human because of what goes on in my mind? Do you know how horrified I am of speaking my mind and being ‘honest’?

Not only have you destroyed the small pieces of sanity in my mind. But you WATCHED how I’d get beaten as a child, you SMILED as my grandfather hit me with a stupid plastic gun because I was being a ‘child’. You are /not/ a mother nor hard working, not even close. Hard working humans get the ‘recognition’ they deserve. You didn’t defend me when my aunt, left SCARS on my arm, you did not defend me when my aunt BEAT me because I didn’t wake up for school. You didn’t help me when I had constantly attempted to kill myself, you’d WATCH me suffer before lifting a finger to help me and then you’d HIT me and BEAT me because I wanted to take my life. I never called the COPS because you’d make them seem like useless MONSTERS, but I must say. I agree, you and them are inconsiderate monsters that think with ‘authority’ you can get away with anything and normally /kill/ people like me. People who HAVE a dream like me. You’d rip and break my sister’s things because she would NEVER agree with your form of thinking.

You are not human. Because, human is an evolved species who has the capability of comprehending the mentality, points of views of others without attacking, insulting or humiliating a person and find a /safe/ form of way of developing a utopia, a peaceful society. But, no, you’re one of THOSE people and I’m just the black sheep in the herd. Someone who isn’t going to take shit from you, when I was younger my ideal plan for my life was to MURDER my whole entire family to stop the madness from corrupting the little pieces of my mind, to stop humiliating and attacking INNOCENT PEOPLE.

I hate you, you disgusting foul demon that has only come to embarrass and ruin my LIFE. But you get so ANGRY over the fact that I’m 16, and I have the worst mind ever. The kind of corrupted brain that would end your pitiful, fucking life because I don’t like the way you look at me, you stupid, homophobic, selfish, inconsiderate, *****. I -/h a t e\- you and I will never /care/ nor /love/ you. I will play the scene of that one daughter, who smiled when you DIED. I will not drop a TEAR for your death, and let a hero’s name defend my word. Because, people like you. Not even Heroes want to save.

And you, oh I have so much, SHIT. To say about you, you stupid *****. Like all the fucking times, you’d humiliate and mock me, because I am not going to be some, stupid slut (LOOK AT MY SISTER, YOU’RE SUCH A GOOD MOTHER. HM, THAT’S WHY SHE’S A FUCKING SLUT.) that you are, or my sister is. I am mother fucking, ME. And guess, the fuck what. I am not going to be some girl, I am not going to be the image of some 1900s man’s ideal woman.. FUCK YOU. Okay? Because, I’d prefer slitting my fucking throat, before putting on MAKE UP, to be someone I’m not. Nor am I going to dress in revealing clothes, so men can be satisfied and think of me as some less being they can get with, whenever they fucking please.

I’m a fucking pansexual, Omnigender, flat-chested, gaming nerd, who reads ACTION COMIC BOOKS, and plays with action figures, N O T barbies, I am not some doll. *****, I’m the definition of ‘fearless’, for I don’t tremble for anyone or anybody. I /laugh/ instead and snicker in joy and excitement. So, for whenever the blade sneers at my skin, don’t act *****. Because, we both know everyone will find out the truth the second, the crimson pellets of blood reach the ground and, so god help you, that ever mafian, gang member, human, demon or angel and mystical fuckin’ creature will seek you to see you D E A D. For the demons will not forgive you and the angels will not grant you safety and the living ones will torture you second by second as I kick off my shoes in HELL and bathe in the spa with Lucifer the demon lord himself. For he and god will have my name on their lists of “VIP”, don’t fuck with me you stupid skank for I am the fucking omen in flesh and bone.

Oh by the way, everyone. My mother tried to kill me as a baby, and sacrifice me to Satan himself. Lovely family I was born into, is it not?