It’s been tiring these past few weeks.. I can’t think anymore.. I just slouch and barely talk.. slouch and barely try anymore.. I just want to let out all of this crying but no matter how hard I try I can’t even seem to squeeze out a tear.. I always taste throw up in the back of my throat.. I can feel my veins on my temples from being stressed.. It’s too tiring.. to be human.. I hate being Human… Everyone saw my scars today while I changed and I was confronted by all of my classmates.. confronted and lectured… I’m too tired to do anything now.. I just want to lay in bed all day.. I just want to be trapped forever in a good dream… a good dream where you never feel pain or abandonment.. a dream where you are loved for as long as you want…
I don’t want to kill myself.. I just want to get over this sadness.. get over myself.. and move on from these wretched memories… I feel like carving everyone’s faces off…….
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I don’t have aspirations. My reasoning is that if you eventually realise your life ambitions, unsatisfied you might think there’s no reason to keep going and if you fail it leads to disappointment. Who would want to live under that kind of pressure. It’s an impossible situation which is why I don’t have any. My greatest achievement is waking up each day, anything else is a bonus. You wouldn’t want to end up like me though, you have tons of potential.