boyfriend

In a couple words you made me feel like I am nothing. I don’t cry no I don’t even flinch because I can’t let you know the pain you cause me. I love you so much. I don’t want you to see how weak I am. I can’t believe I’m lying to you. I don’t lie anymore. It feels like I changed when I met you. You said forever. You said so much I hope this is all true because I will not be hurt again. I’m ill to ill for you. You think you can do what you want with me because I’m fucked in the head. I love you I hate you. I want you to stay but you need to leave. Don’t tell me I’m messing with your head and I’m bipolar. I’m not! Your the one that changes so much. How am I suppose to know that you changed your mind. What do you want you act like I’m suppose to know but you don’t tell me. Just because I get difficult you should not have to disappear for a week. It hurts me a lot because I don’t need to go through someone leaving cause I’m ill again. I want to feel good enough for you. I can’t just make myself happy and I really want to kill myself. You don’t understand. I not selfish I just don’t have enough will to get out of bed I’m not living anyways. I’m to young to feel this way. I’m to blind to see this all straight. I hope your leading me somewhere safe.