Dad constantly hugs me, kisses me, messes my hair *affectionately*, rubs my face with his hands, the same hands he used to hurt my mum. Makes me feel SICK.
He constantly calls me, last thing at night, first thing in the morning.
Whenever my fon beeps “is it mom?” no dad its my friends lauren. Whenever im texting somone “are you texting mum” any word from mum? G’on text mum for me. Makes me text stuff to her I don’t want to say
My position is that I am lying. Constantly lying through my teeth. I don’t love him, don’t want him back, I HATE HIM DISPISE HIM, he is the reason I joined this site, the reason that I wrote 3 suicide letters last year. The reason that last year I slit my the whole way up my arm. The reason I found relief from taking a thumbtack and repeatedly scratching my arm deep and painfully with it until it bled.
He calls me baby. Tells me he loves me.
He still cares more about his flipping car than us. tut tut tut look at that just look at the shape of that my nice clean car that we spent all evening cleaning and look at the shape theyve left it in choclate everywhere!
No matter what he says it all boils down to this. Him oh poor woe is me. I’m the one suffering. the last 5 months of suffering. my head, im having a bad day today please girls things are hard enough at the minute. I cant take this fighting and huffing no more. Im suffering. IM hurting, I know your hurting too but daddys really can’t stick this he doesnt deserve this
GAG PROJECTILE VOMIT!
he stopped the car and told my sister to get out becoz she had been huffing in the back seat. while I woz at a sleepover with my friends she had to ring me to tell me that, telll me that she wishes i woz there with her.
This entry 1 for record. Is a seriously diluted version, becoz it’s exhausting repeating everything that i just got off my chest to my mum. I love her. I really do, i didn’t want to make her sad by telling her about all this stuff but she just hugged me and told me that she loved me, next entry, I will be typing right from my chest. So then you will get the real idea. I’ve forgotten stuff and everything im just exhausted, I’ll be back with the whole story and the whole feel of it….too sooon -_-
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I’m glad you have at least one parent you love