Some news you choos if it’s happy or not o/////o

Well I am basicly obese in the sense of BMI….the last guy I fell in love was gay and every thing I wasn’t, but he was depressed to, and I knew all of this before hand…..it hurted so bad to be by him now but I think I finally moved on….. I promised my self I will never date in my life time and I was kinda fine with that….,becuase I am a huge pervert and been that way since five….even thougth I never let any one see this part of me……but any way I found this guy who is worth trying for…… But I am so scared….and sad at the same time…..he seems so sad…he is really awesome when happy…but most of the time he s sad….I am a bit taller and older then him…..so losing weigth is a must…. Hopefully by next year I can ask to hang out with him……but the scarey part about this is that he seems so depressed…people with no souls looks Sooo much pain……an other scarey part of this is that I never hanged out with any one before….not even friends….so I migth died if I ask him on a date -I probabaly won’t ask him on a date thougth-….. I will probably just ask him to hang out its not my place to ask people on dates …. That’s just weird…. ^^………..wish me luck in losing 115 pounds ^^ ……..