starving for confession

You can’t always expect people to “notice” something is wrong. Nobody can read minds. Does it necessarily make them worse friends or family just because it might require you to say out loud that you aren’t feeling great and could use some support before they take notice? No. Expecting people to read you isn’t fair and actually kind of self absorbed and immature. Are you paying enough attention to any of them to automatically know how they truly feel inside? No, probably not. If a friend told you that they were feeling down and just needed someone to talk to, would you gladly listen? Probably. Don’t expect magic from people. Just because you might have to ask people for some attention before you get any doesn’t mean they don’t care. Actually it’s quite the opposite. If you ask for some attention and get it, it proves they do care. But don’t expect them to figure it out on their own, or to notice you slowly losing weight as a cry for help.

By the way, no human has the will power to starve themselves when food is readily available. At some point your lower level animal instincts will kick in and you will crave nourishment so badly that you will eat. You don’t understand starvation if you really think you can just sit there and choose to let it happen. When you start to experience true hunger, which can take weeks or months because your body can survive off of its own tissues for a decent while, you won’t just be able to not eat.

So stop being silly. Eat something, and tell your family and friends you could use some support. They will listen. The way you’re trying to do things right now is just really melodramatic and self pitying. And I’m not a troll trying to be mean, I’m just telling you some uncomfortable truths that I think are more useful than wasting time encouraging you to attempt starving yourself.

Kill two birds with one stone. Tell a friend you need someone to talk to and ask if they’ll get lunch with you. Eat. Talk. Smile. Laugh.