I have been seriously depressed for 10 years now. Â I have been planning to kill myself for about 2 years. Â Just when I think that I am getting on top of it all — taking my medication, seeing my psychiatrist, managing my life IT ALL STARTS AGAIN.
I am in a high stress job. Â Before I got depressed I was a high flyer. Â Heaps of work etc, Â Since getting depressed it has all gone away, lost to me, I am worthless, I am a failure etc You have heard it all before.
Now I am starting to have panic attacks. Â I do not want to do this anymore.
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Quit your job – I know it’s probably easier said than done. But look at the alternative – death is the other option. At least try to downsize your hours or find a new profession. You said it yourself it’s a high stress level job – a job shouldn’t make you have panic attacks or suicidal thoughts.
If you want to get your life back on track – speak to your family and friends and discuss the options that are best for you. Ten years is a LONG LONG time to be seriously depressed – I don’t know how you got through it. But what that does tell me is you do want to live and get back on the right path.
Consider your options before even contemplating the idea of suicide.
What do you think makes your life difficult to manage aside from the high stress job?