I dont think I actually want to die. What I want is to pull up a website that will let me completely change myself. Change my personality, my body.
My boyfriend thinks I’m insane. He doesnt like for me to touch him. He thinks I have serious emotional issues. Tonight I threw my phone at him bc he hurt my feelings.
I feel like I have too many thoughts and feelings inside my head and I don’t know how to process them all. I can’t write or talk about them bc I can’t organise them in a way that makes any fuckin sense. When I talk about my thoughts and feelings I just get confused and angry.
So I don’t talk about them. I just sit on all of my insanity till it explodes and I throw my phone at my bfs face. Yep. That’s typical Liv.