as I sit here deep in thought. Am i something you forgot? I am lonely, I am cold. These feelings surrounding me are getting old. I wonder every day, if your love is here to stay. only God knows why so I sit here and I pray. hoping one day this pain will go away I feel torn I feel used I feel broken and abused my heart can’t take this anymore broken shattered on the floor. I am here you are there why can’t you just finally care you say you love me say its true but this love fires turning blue. broken […]
And by pain, I mean physical pain.Â I am sick of hurting all the time.Â I am sick of not sleeping at night because I get these long, miserable headaches, and the treatment(s) are typically stimulants.Â I feel nauseous and depressed and I just want to die.
I have PTSD from being ill.Â I get flashbacks of when I was sickest.Â I was lying spread-eagled on the floor, unable to move.Â I could barely breathe.Â I just lay there and stared at the ceiling, I don’t know for how long.Â I remember crawling from my mattress to the kitchen to open a can of beans.Â It […]
as a person I can generally endure alot losing friends, doing bad in school, arguments with my family, deadlines, a slowly declining bank account and other daily stresses i can survive a lot on my own but today everything kindof just got to me a litl bit. Today i felt my heart seriously racing im not even exagerrating it got to the point where i thought i was gona hav a heart attack. Im on the skinny side too it wasnt really due to physiological causes it was mostly just me getting to that level of stress. im striving to b a doctor/surgeon n im […]
Just actually sit down to think about it
Love is a myth and you can live with out it
Love and pain go hand and hand
If you cant see it why believe you can
You want to see you want to believe
In your heart its not make believe
Use your mind your heartâ€™s deceived
By the one called your hearts thieve
In the end why feel the pain
From the myth love let your mind restrain
To let your heart be broken and stained
Is a huge risk and in the end what do you gain
When you think your in love
I have a reason to stay alive. I know nobody cares but for so long I barely lived with any reason but now I found him. He brings me pure happiness. For the first time I have a smile that is really mine. Behind closed eyelids no longer am I haunted with nightmares and worry but peace and knowing when I wake up he will be there right beside me. When I feel his warmth the coldness in my heart melts away and I am left feeling such strong love that it keeps my thoughts so far away and I can actually live. I am […]
Words are so beautiful.
A simple string of letters;
a certain arrangement of syllables and consonants andÂ vowels,
that have the ability to move you.
A simple word can begin a friendship
or tear apart a family.
And as we go on each day
we speak only some of these beautiful words
while others sit in our minds
dancing on our tongue
behind our lips,
just desperately trying to escape.
Words are powerful
and life is nothing without them.
So why are we taught to hold our tongue
when some of us are dying to speak up?
And if one voice could be heard,
then that voice could be saved.
But instead we silence them
and teach them to be silent.
For the […]
Hi I’m a 13 y/o girl from Sweden that at the moment feel like shit.. My whole life has been hard and so on but now I just want to die. My brother is the main problem, he hits me sometimes but not hard or anything, it the words he says. My whole life he’s been there to tell me that i will fail, I’m nothing, useless. Now those words are the truth in my eyes. He scares the living hell out of me, when he gets mad (and that is pretty much every day) I usually run to the bathroom. Then I will sit […]
It’s 12:01 am. The sweat on my neck causes my hair to stick to the back of my neck. I’m lying in bed. I’m lying to myself. I tell myself that I’m ok. That things will get better. Just give it time. But how much Time? Time is a valuable thing to me. I only have so much of it.
It’s now 12:05 am. I wasted 4 precious minutes typing. 4 minutes ill never get back…
Now it’s 12:10. I’ve been writing for 9 minutes. And yet I feel no better. As a writer shouldn’t this make me happy? If not, at least a tad bit […]
You look into your drawer
to find your thing
which can hide your pain
give you relief
i want you to know
before you pick up your razor
i love you
and this love is much easier
I will pick you up
when you feel like falling
i will hold you tight
when your razor is calling
i will kiss your eyes
when you tearing apart
i will give you everything
and all the love you want
I will sit with you
share your pain
i will love you everyday
this love will never end
when you will be alone
with your razor and knives
i ll come and say
baby you don’t need this
come with me
i will show you what i believe in
I will take you on […]
Hi everyone..this is a poem I created about last year..when depression hit it’s worst..well here it goes,
Trapped like a bird I sit in this cage
Never once to show a bit of rage
Empty, like a book without it’s page
All I know is now..I bleed
The one that watches me has no creed
All the thoughts..on MY mind
Never are they..ever kind
My eyes become dark..I think I am blind
My mind wishes to just rewind
To forget everything I had once done
But, my heart challenged my mind…and won
So know..I still am forced to know what I have done
I am no […]
they say its not a big issue
they say i can fight
they say i want attention
they say i ll never be fine
but these cuts
and my scars
hide the things
i wanted forever
hides the pain
hides my tears
hides the love
and my fear
and these cuts seems so beautiful
when i sit alone and write
write the story
with a razor
this pain will never leave me
forever and ever
these cuts and my scars
i just cant hide
because its the part of my
I sit at the edge of the fountain whilst all the children play within. There is ample water that does not touch me or cool me. My reflection broken on a thousand surfaces. A thousand eyes. A thousand fears.
i found this site by accedent. i am 34 single parent that has lost everything exept my child. found something to hold me up and now i am loosing that to and i havent been coping and dont think i can cope anymore. the crying, the pain just won’t stop. it is now wensday i haven’t slept since fryday.Â every one tells me to hang on God will make it all beter. when is he going to do it when i sit with a pistolÂ placed and cocked behind my ear. plus everyone thinks they know what i am going throu, but its not them going throu […]
Have you tried every option in the book that never worked and are now planning your suicide? Before you even try to kill yourself, I want you to do a small task for me. I want you to go to the most peaceful and beautiful place you know that it is close to you (say.. the beach, the sun gleaming on the forest, a beautiful park)Â Go there, and just sit and notice the beauty around you. Don’t think, don’t cut. Just close your eyes, your mind, your hurt. Listen around you and relax. Do this whenever life gets to you. I don’t know if this […]
I never thought that the people i watched on the tv in health class could one day be me. I never thought i would feel so helpless that i would want to die. But i do…and have attempted sciucide three times, each time i have either been stopped by someone, or it just didnt work. I think that this depression, or feelings of depression came about the start of my 9th grade year. Everyone has a group of friends, i was too unsocial to join one and now im too late, everyone always says; oh wow your so funny or you crack me up, but […]
First things first here in the UK its exam season.
So my friend had anÂ exam today: Biology and considering he wants to study medicine – well psychology,Â it was really important for him to do well. I asked him yesterday if he felt prepared for it and he said he “barely knew any of the content” – but he always says that and goes on toÂ get 90% on his papers and so I pushedÂ the commentÂ aside.
After his exam today I asked him how he thought it went and he said “SHIT”. Again its something he always says when he finishes exams and so I began to push […]
But who’s gonna listen? You? You, the one who comes up to me with a sickly sweet voice saying “What’s wrong?”, and when I tell you, all you have to say is “You need some help, go talk to someone!” before walking the fuck away. That’s the sort of shit that makes people like me NOT talk, you inconsiderate son of a *****.
Everyday, every night, I’m looking. Looking all around me, at my Facebook account, at my Skype, at my phone contacts book, at my god damn life. And always wondering, “Who’s ever gonna listen to me?”.
No-one, that’s who. And the ironic thing is […]
All my parents do is make me feel like im not good enough. im sorry i cant be their perfect child. It’s hard trying to keep them happy.
My friends have all became distant. I sit alone on the bus and at lunch. None of them understand. I’ve tried telling them but they dont help. Only i can help myself, i understand that. but i dont know how. im lost.
I told my boyfriend my whole story once. the reason i started cutting. why im suicidal. why im always crying when he calls me late at night. I told him all of my secrets. He made me […]
I dont think I actually want to die. What I want is to pull up a website that will let me completely change myself. Change my personality, my body.
My boyfriend thinks I’m insane. He doesnt like for me to touch him. He thinks I have serious emotional issues. Tonight I threw my phone at him bc he hurt my feelings.
I feel like I have too many thoughts and feelings inside my head and I don’t know how to process them all. I can’t write or talk about them bc I can’t organise them in a way that makes any fuckin sense. When I […]