Lies

You think things are going right and then you find out the one that you think love you are lying to your face and it seem to never stop. You don’t understand why they lied, but they just keep lying and you don’t know what is the truth or another lie. You just start to feel the world spinning and you’re scared that the spinning won’t stop. You share the room with that person and they’re so obsessed on keeping the lie alive that you can’t even look at them. You just want to yell and scream at them, but all you do is cut, cry, and blame yourself. What else is there to do? You have so much pain already and they just added more and you feel as you are worth nothing so you say “Why am I here no one even wants me here?” You try to cut deeper every time that blade goes across your skin. And you’re just waiting for it to be just deep enough that you don’t wake up in the morning. But you wake the next morning and don’t want to move then you go through the motions till the next night and try again and again till the pain takes the numbness away. That’s all there is till that last day.