Outcomes

I am trying to predict the aftermath of my own suicide for example Will the emotional damage to friends and family be worse than the unintentional damage i will surely inflict on them with my continued existence?  i just want to leave everything without a trace but i know this impossible i have been here long enough to make an impact on my environment/ family and friends albeit in a mostly negative way i know most of the people in my life wont understand my reasoning but i refuse to allow my own failures and disappointment  to infect those i love anymore this is truly for the best of those who still have hope for a happy meaningful life. i don’t want to drag anyone down with me .