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A classmate of mine hanged himself a few days ago, I didn’t know him personally but I can’t help feeling like it should’ve been me or something. If I could take his place, I would. I don’t really know what I want to say, all I know is that my head is worse than usual.
People all around us are suffering, it have been a surprise that this particular person killed themselves to you, but believe me when I tell you that a lot of your class feel something like you do now. No one knows what to do in a situation like this. A friend of mine killed himself when I was in school as well. I never really figured it out or got over it, I just kind of forgot about it.
” feeling like it should’ve been me or something”
Why should it have been you? Do you wish it was you?
Damn I wish I had balls like that guy who hung himself.
He’s in a better place but my knees are still knockin’
It’d be great to be dead right now.
Oh, I don’t think there’s that many in my class who feel the same. I’ve wanted to die for a long time. It’s just that, it would give me something to die for.
I think I agree with coitus……although, I’m not sure it’s the lack of balls , it just feels like I have to try a bit longer. Besides I promised this girl I wouldn’t.
Well both of you may want to be dead, but since your not, and in theory you wont be anytime soon, why not try to enjoy the time you have left. Whats the last happy thing you can remember? What do you find fun? your life cant be pain 24/7 and if it is, then that sucks and I’m sorry to hear that.
That’s the point, I don’t remember the last time I was happy. Possibly last tuesday when I got completely drunk. The only time I’m “happy” is when I don’t think.
Really, that’s a long time with any sort of laughter. sorry about that too. If thinking is your problem perhaps you could try meditation to stop the constant voices. I am not saying it will magically cure you or anything, but it could give you a few minutes of clarity and possible happiness. If you have a loud constant inner chatter box you could try gibberish meditation, would you like me to explain how to try it?
It helped me a lot when I couldn’t think straight because of the voices in my head as a teen. :/
I don’t know, I can laugh and such but it feels fake, or something. Most of my personality is fake. I feel nothing most of the time. I get pretty severe anxiety from time to time.
So there’s no “voices” or something like that, it’s just, empty.
some people have to start saying it out loud and then progress to just saying it in their own minds, or just start thinking it.The only voice should be your own, and you are only saying gibberish that doesn’t make sense, like you were talking to a baby, after a few minutes you shouldn’t have had any understandable thoughts for a while, so no negative things or self doubt or anxiety.
Quieting your mind is more advanced, but yes, I use transcendental meditation to quiet my mind, it took me a few months to get the hang off, but now my mind is like the ocean when I want it to be.
Its not for everyone, but is worth a go in my opinion.
How do you feel right now?
At the moment, I feel nothing as usual. I will try the gibberish method the next time I have an attack.
You feel nothing? I have head of many emotions, but nothing is not one of them. You are feeling something, but you cannot translate it into words, or you simply do not understand it. You want to see a counsellor about that. I used to have very bad anxiety, I almost dropped out of college and was planning on ending my own life. I decided to go to the counsellors office in the college, one last hurrah, a last ditch effort. The person who was assigned to help me was a very beautiful woman, I at the time would go into near panic attack mode when a woman as beautiful ass this was near me, let alone talk to me.
She helped me understand my thoughts, helped me to feel again. I know counselling doesn’t work for everyone, but I can honestly say that she saved my life. Over time the anxiety got better, I realised that when I talked to a woman that the world didn’t end.
That’s my silly story, and I have to go. I wish you all the best Limbo94. I hope you find peace and happiness, one way or another.
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It’s complicated 🙂
Thank you for everything, my evening got a bit brighter!
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