Sometimes, I do wonder. How could hell be a place much worse than here? At least there, I’d know why I’m there. I dont know why I’m here. I’ve always wanted to be the person..the one who helps out that kid..the kid that no one knows is going through something, or feeling llonely, or contemplating suicide…I realized tonight that no one feels this way but me. I AM that kid. Â The kid that silently feels like a screw up..the one who relies on men because they have no one else. The one who feels lonely and hides well enough that everyone thinks im fine. I AM that kid. I realized that im just holding my breath..hoping someone would find me..but i’ll suffocate and turn to stone..because who could help a stone..who could find no one? I AM NO ONE.
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When our search for love has failed in the arms of men
Lonely roads behind that led us to them
Only to be walking that same road with disappointment and shame
To keep us walking with our heads down never really seeing
The son shining above that brings light to this dusty road
The light that warms our heart and gives light to our path
Can be found if we look up instead of down
Not in the arms of men but in the arms of a greater love
who knew us from even before we were born and sees us
walking these lonely roads with our heads down in shame
He is there ready and waiting to give rest to the weary and hope
for the lost who have be disappointed by love in the arms of men
A future we can not see but his love is greater than our fears
If only we look up and ask him to take our hand and lead us
to the place where our road is not dusty or dirty but clean and warm
In the arms of him where our future is safe and secure in love
Here and now this can be if only we look up instead of down.
email me. i care about your well being (believe it or not)
Man I understand how you feel for sure! I’m 17 and I’ve gotten hit on by so many girls but I really never let them in because I’m looking for that one person to see past my fake happy exterior and see that I’m just a freak… but that never really comes, I guess you have to find that person on your own. It’s funny how i know it but still wait. I too feel like a screw up, I graduated high school when I was 16 and I’m supposed to be this super smart person but yet I feel like a nobody, trying to find his own in this vast pool that is life. I feel nothing like I have accomplished nothing and have nothing, empty and worthless. It sucks but it’s there ever present. I usually write a solution to the problem given but this time I guess, I’m feeling blue too. One of my goals is to help people who are depressed but I have failed you, as in a way I’m in the same rut as you.
Together we are The Nothings? *huggles*
If you still want to email I’m here (I don’t have your email tho O.o)