Still here but I’m already dead inside

I feel exactly like I did yesterday. I’m going to keep trying, but I know the end is coming. Its like a timer that is steadily ticking down. Today I will go out into the world and try to make friends or find a date for the weekend. Nothing will come from it and I will end up feeling bored and alone. At least I try even if it is for nothing. I just want this all to be over. The need for love is exhausting. No friends, no family, and I’m almost out of love. It’ll be over soon enough.