I feel as if i paint my smiles on.. I don’t think I’ve ever went through so much pain in a month.. You said you felt bad that you did it because it was a week after my great grandmother died? That was my first funeral.. You were there.. Holding me.. Kissing me.. Then bam it all went down hill.. Why? You put me through hell, i fought for us and you did nothing! You told me to shut the fuck up when you knew i was right… Why do I still have to feel this pain? I don’t want it anymore.. Then you’d continue to talk about her when i tried to fix us.. maybe if i would of never found out any of this i couldn’t be hurting so much, You lied & lied.. Hid things from me.. That hurt and you act like it was nothing at all..
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I commented on your last post. Well. You were here before and left and now you’re back. Sadly it’s the same stuff. Guys. I’m not saying I don’t want to read this! I’m just thinking that maybe….you should take it slow with any guy from now on? They only seem to use you and hurt you. I know my generation and the ones after it are only interested in dating when they aren’t even in high school yet and they forget that there’s more to life. You have so much time to find someone in your life, and theres so much more out there than him. Ah but I doubt this will even matter.
Hey Kailee
I know how you feel. I’ve been through relationships that just seem unfixable and end up crashing in flame. And I know that pain. That pain of loss, loneliness has haunted me all my life, even before I was in relationships. You can see my post if you want to know that story: “Admitting it. And hoping someone is listening…”
And AtTheEnd is right about there being more in the world than just him. I understand your pain now, but that pain can fade. It took me six months to get over a relationship, but I finally did. I don’t know how quickly your relationship with this guy progressed, but AtTheEnd is also right that it needs to be slow. Speed ended things with another of my girlfriends. Don’t give your heart freely to every guy that walks up, but don’t close yourself off either. Relationships take work, and sadly, pain is a part of it.
remember, I’m always here if you want to talk