I’m sorry.

I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry.

I’m sorry for all the time’s you’ve cut. I’m sorry for all the pain you’ve felt. I’m sorry for all that’s ever happened to you.

What would I know about pain, about anything? I’m only 13. Just a girl who has no idea what life is. But then I accidentally got onto this website, and I read.

I read from 8 pm to 4 am, all the suffering and loss and bullying. I’m young, and innocent, but that innocence is now mixed with a knowledge that we live in a paradise surrounded by thin glass walls, and behind those walls are your greatest fears. And those walls can break at ANY MOMENT. All of you, who’ve given up on their lives.

I’m no therapist. I’m not even out of high school yet. But all I know is that I want all of you to survive. To claw your way out of this fucking pit called depression and LIVE. I want to have my cake and eat it too- I want everyone on Suicide Project to keep their hearts beating.

Like I said, I don’t know what you guys are going through. This is a rant- I’m just speaking what I feel. I’m crying too- I thought everything could be solved, and that impossible was just “I’m possible” crammed together.

I don’t even know what the point of this post is. After this post, I’m just going to log off, and try to go to sleep.

I’m just looking at all these posts, all these PEOPLE, and feeling this clenching feeling in my heart. And I know, that these people have gone through things too difficult to describe. You are raw, bleeding, sore and just dead tired. You can’t feel anything anymore.

I wonder- Will this post, made by a girl in some corner of the world soothe someone’s passing? Or make them say “She means well, but she doesn’t know shit.” Or maybe even save a life?

I want this post to save a life. I wish it could.

But I’m dreaming. People die. People take their own lives. That’s what the world is all about.

I just want to scoop the whole world up in my arms, and hug them until all their troubles are gone.

I don’t know anything anymore.

All I know is that I’m sorry for everything that’s made you  cry.

Please don’t flame too hard- I swear I only mean well. 🙁