New to this, but have experiences I would like to share and would also like any advice from others.
I have large scars on my leg from top of my thigh to the knee, some very long and wide. On my left arm I have scars on both sides of my arm including my wrist. I have been in this situation for six years. I use to live in small towns where scars were more acceptable so I showed off my arm with ease and didn’t have any issues. I moved to a city a few years ago and have found peoples reactions more of an issue, (i work as cleaner, in bar and am student so arm is exposed a lot now its summer) I hear comments, have been ridiculed and even fired for my scars so I am over cautious. It took me a year to show arm in the bar – although I never ever show my legs even though they are long and slim, people tell me I have a nice figure and I always feel false as they cannot see what is underneath my clothes. I would love to be able to show my legs more in public but it is so difficult as I have moved away from self harm and do not what to be categorized as one anymore but unfortunately I always will be. (Although have slipped up in last three to four months with burning my arm with boiling water and cutting my self with a knife when i was drunk) This makes life extra hard for myself, as I am a depressant still. It is a vicious circle I cannot get away from. If anyone knows how I feel then please help.
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I have similar scars from burning and cutting.But only on one arm cause its the only place i cut.I hide my arm usually with a jacket.Im very self conscious.Oddly i dont cut or burn as much anymore.Burn.I cutting i stopped because i worried id burn something down.But why i stopped cutting ill never know.
The best advice i can give you is to make a promise to yourself that youll only cut if youve tried everything else possible to get your emotions under control.Plus dress to impress yourself.Wear stuff that will cover your scars but still make you look and feel beautiful.If worse comes to worse go to a skin doctor and ask them what they feel you should do.
I was a cutter for many years. I have scars that will never go away, but probly not in places so visible. I have them on my legs and my right wrist, but that one kinda blends in with other scars that are obviously not self inflicted. On the other hand I have a few that are not self inflicted, but look like I did them on purpose. I cut myself yesterday, but by accident.
I don’t care what people think about my scars, fuck them. But if you want a job yes you’ll have to keep them hidden.
My advise:
Save your money and start getting tattoos. That’s what I did to satisfy my need to cut and create in that self desired self destructive way. And there is always an employer who will hire people with tattoos. Find a caring artist that will help you design your art work and help you cover your scars. If you find some one just right, they will understand and have compassion for your condition. You would have some one to talk to who understands the pain of skin And you would be able to start showing off your arms again. 🙂 think about it.