Not making it look like what it is…

How many of us continue to struggle and suffer in a place we no longer want to be? How many of us have tried therapy, medication, family, friends, and religion only to realize that you still want to leave this world? Most of us know how we want to go and when we want to go, but have that one thing that keeps us from moving toward peace… our families. If we could just cover up the fact that we committed suicide and make it look natural or accidental, we’d probably take that final step toward death. If this is not your situation or concern then I apologize, but this is where I struggle the most with my own demise. I simply do not want to hurt the ones left behind to deal with the loss, shame, and guilt of my actions. So, what to do…. If only I could convince someone to come to my home and remove the tank and mask once I’m gone. In affect, removing  any trace of an act that will devastate my loved ones. Simple really, but who can I ask to do the task? Anyone that I already know would simply have me committed! Trusting someone off the street seems impractical as well. What I propose is this,… a volunteer group of people who can carry out these requests, and as members of this group we help one another much like the “pay it forward” approach. I do it for you, then someone else will do it for me, and on and on. Think of it as mercy helpers without the legal implications. We’re just doing clean up to an event we had no part of, and it’s untraceable! A simple pick up of a tank and mask we can easily cart off in a backpack to be discarded in the trash elsewhere. Your ideas and suggestions please. 🙂