Pathetic

Honestly its pissing me off and I really needed somewhere to rant and get out all these terrible ideas and thoughts out of my head.

Me and my boyfriend have been going through a rough patch with my trust issues and his past relationship. But I have been trying to put up with it for a long while. I mean, I do understand that we will things that the others left behind but saying the you have already got rid of it and lying to my face. It hurts. The reason why im just so incredibly angry right now is because I found naked pictures of his ex-girlfriend in the folder where we put our downloaded games. He thought he was smart by trying to put it with the games I usually don’t like to play but renaming it as a game. Can you see where I am coming from? After all this time he still has her in his mind. Its funny because he was the reason why I have been trying to stop my depressant pills and trying to move on with life. Now, he is the reason why I feel like I need them again. Sad isn’t it? All for a guy who couldn’t let go of his past.

What would any of you do? Aside from confronting and the occasional yelling. I started to cut myself again but I play it off as burns. No body knows because I do get burns from where I work in similar areas. I just want this pain to end.