um.. Im not sure anymore

I don’t think i could ever kill myself.. But i don’t want to be here. I wish i was dead.. I just don’t think i could do it. I would chicken out. I wish i could though. I have tried and it failed. I tried cutting deep. Like really deep. But i couldn’t do that either. I do cut though. I have scars all over my body. I just really wish i could do it. I wish i was gone. It would make everyone lives easier. I have been told that to. By people at school.