I wake up
to find you dead
I don’t believe
my broken head
I go to school
thinking you’re asleep
but through the day
I can’t help but weep
I feel dead when
I come home
seeing you there
my heart turns stone
I call a friend
scared and crying
She tells me you’re dead
I tell her she’s lying
Now there are cops
In our small home
they ask me questions
and invade our dome
I realize now
what this does mean
with these people around me
I let out a silent scream
It was valentines day
that you died of OD
I thought you were fine
but I guess that’s just me
Some time has passed
and I hold this blade
reminding myself
of the pain I’ve made
I’m sorry I lied
about some things that I did
I was just scared
So I went and hid
I’m sorry I ran
from the life you tried to give
I was so stupid
Thinking I shouldn’t live
I’m sorry I left you
dead and alone
now I will be joining
In our little home
I hold the bottle
filled with things so mean
as I take them
I let out a silent scream
…
Dedicated to my mother… who died seven months ago. I’m sorry… and I miss you…
10 comments
I’m so sorry for your loss…my heart was breaking reading this…
thanks… and sorry for the heart breakage.
It’s okay, I can’t even imagine what it was like for you, you have no reason to apologize because it was breaking for you and your loss, I’ve lost people close to me but I still can’t ever picture my life without my mom…
Yeah I’ve never really lost anyone very close to me before that… and my family’s like really separated so I didn’t really know the rest of my family
I’m really sorry for your loss 😔
Thanks…
I read this a lot and never knew what to say. I still don’t, but I’m going to leave a comment anyway. I can feel the sense of loss through your words. Namaste
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:'( i can feel the sadness, im sorry for your loss.
thanks. It really helped me sort of vent my sadness.