Dear parents: Im sorry Im not yhe best daughter, and Im just a disapointment to you guys. A good of nothing.
Dear brother and sister; Im sorry Im not the best good big sister, that Im just a bother, that I cant help you.
Dear Friends; Im sorry to make you guys suffer, that I left out and never talk to you. And leaving you.
Dear love; Â Im sorry Im not that preatty, that You couldnt love me I understand who can love someone like me. I wont be in your way.
Dear people; Im sorry for being a weirdow, a freak, for not being normal like every one of you.
Dear my self; Im sorry for hurting you, for being born, Im sorry for making you this, for not be able to be happy.
Why the heart?
Cause I’m cheesy trying to ignore my bad mood–that’s why I’m typing hearts everywhere. It’s Sept, 27th — today it completes 3 years from my last suicide attempt. Suicide notes are melting me today.
Be happy (after death)
Heya. It’s okay to be weird. You don’t have to die because of that. We’re all weirdos here. Personally I think it’s awesome to be unique. I think you’re pretty awesome, too.
Don’t beat yourself up for not being 100%. Nobody is perfect all the time. We all make mistakes, we all accidentally hurt people. The most we can do is apologize and hope they’ll accept it. If they don’t, well, you can still be a good person. Yes, it’s difficult to be happy all the time. The secret is noticing the moments where you are happy. If you can take moments to yourself where you focus on YOU and doing what YOU like, rather than trying to be WonderGirl for everyone else, you’ll feel better. Take each day as it happens. You’ll see that you’re a survivor. You can make it through and you will be able to cope better with all the bad days. <3
I just wish I could go back and change everything
I’ve wished that too, but since it’s impossible, the thing to do is focus on the present. Sometimes all you can do is leave the past in the past and move forward. ‘Just keep swimming.’
somepeople cant swim and drown
That’s what I thought too, but I’m still here! I survived high school somehow. I’m sure you can too. I kept thinking of when I would live far away from there, and it helped. I also did things like watch lots of movies in my spare time for fun. Idk. It was a good distraction.
ok sometimes i just sing my favorite songs
I always did that as well. Still do. 🙂 It’s fun. Have you ever tried one of those karaoke apps on a phone? They’re pretty cool. I have one called ‘Sing’ by Smule. You can join someone else and have a ‘duet’ or if you have enough ‘credit’ you can sing your own song.
that sounds cool
Yeah! Look it up. It’s available for both iPhones/iPads/iPod Touch (in the iTunes store) and Android phones (Google Play).
I’d rather be weird. All the people I’m friends with are cast offs. No one really wants us cause we be weird bitches. But there are worse things, and better places.
I miss my best friend Wilson. We both share many things in common.
He’s a round quiet fella, he loves to spend time on the beach. He never yells, swears, or causes me stress and he doesn’t mind my obsession with coconuts. Trip to Hawaii 1500$, 4 glasses of Colt .45 2$, for everything else there’s a bloody hand & a volleyball that will always be there for u.
@Slava You’re Tom Hanks!?! I would never have guessed. It’s a pleasure to meet you, sir.
I’m just an ordinary guy, a huge movie buff with a big heart. As usual it’s been a God awful shitty mess of a day. Cast Away, Good Will Hunting, Forest Gump, Apollo13 I love movies that move me emotionally. LOL No I’m not Tom Hanks, but thank you for putting a smile on my face.
I’m a big movie buff as well. Usually. I haven’t been viewing as many lately. I try to keep up with new films from year to year as well as delve into the classics.
Hmm. The thing is you seem to be awfully familiar with beach-lovin’ volleyballs. I can’t quite take your word for it that you’re not a certain celebrity. I think I’m going to call you Tom Hanks from now on. At least in my head if not out loud. I always knew that celebs would end up on suicide sites at some point. It’s sad but what can you do.
Believe me dear friend but I am not Tom Hanks LOL. Anyway you sound like a very fascinating person with an interesting sense of humor. Holla @ me if you ever delve into the film industry so I can be ur #1 fan, and if not, hell I’ll still watch ur movies, nothin sexier than a girl with an awesome sense of humor.
If you say so. 😉
Hehe. Well, I plan on writing some screenplays one day, so possibly you’ll see films of mine in the cinema. 🙂 I’d love to be on the A-list for the Cannes Festival and those sorts of events. I usually attend this international film festival every year that is in my area, but I missed out this time due to lack of necessary funds. It was always fun to hobnob with celebrities.
just to comment about the original post, you sound like me, at the beginning of my pain. It is so much worse now. I wish I could tell you it gets better but it doesn’t. have you ever heard the song vincent? It is a song about the beauty of vincet vango. I know I didn’t spell his name right but he was a famous artist in history. He committed suicide. There is a line in that song. “I’m sorry Vincent that the world was never meant for someone as beautiful as you” too often gentle hearts and gentle spirits die because this world is very hard and cruel. I have some hope that hero’s are real and there are some people trying to love and make it a better place. But the world has never been kind. In fact the further back in history you go the nastier people were. So if you do decide to die I will not personally hold it against you. The world was just not meant for someone as beautiful as you.
@wordlesswithin Beautiful people can still survive. You don’t have to be so disparaging. I hope lots of hope for brokendream. She just needs to ‘choose her battles’ and learn to appreciate herself, and she’ll be fine. There will always be pain at times, but the trick is overcoming it and moving forward.
*have lots of hope
you guys are so nice I wanna cry *hugs*
(: *hugs in return*